May 2012
37 posts
Random Ramblings
Had a meeting with my boss today, and after internship stuff was done, we talked a bit on my future career and what i wanna do. I can feel the idea of what i wanna do firming up a lot more, and i’m quite excited at the prospect of it actually. For now, i’ll just learn what i can, and to the best of my abilities.
On the other hand, i wanna say thank you to you :) For being the special...
Tonight is cry yourself to sleep because you're...
Oh joy.
Never expected a happy day to have this happen..
I don’t get how some people can compartmentalize so well it seems that they are 2 separate personalities. The change is so big that each time even though i understand, i struggle to accept the sudden switch.
You remember everything people tell you, but not defining moments that belong to us that i hold close to my heart. It’s not the first time this happened, but i cracked today. I...
I HAVE THE MOST AWESOMEST BOYFRIEND IN THE WORLD
and baby, don’t you ever ever forget that :)
My boyfriend is not replying my messages. Pft :
Price for vanity
Went to see the doctor today because i’ve been having trouble eating nowadays. It’s hard to swallow and i have to eat really small mouthfuls or my chest has a super tight feeling that gets painful sometimes.
Anyway, the doctor said that it’s due to my gastric problems because there’s a lot of air in my tummy and it’s trying to come up while the food is trying to go...
The Devil Inside
This is a very angry part of me that i’m not used to. This kind of anger, i haven’t felt in a very long time. It’s not the kind occurs momentarily. It’s the kind that builds up over time and now it’s threatening to erupt and if i don’t control it, i know i’ll do or say things that i’ll regret.
My thoughts scare me, because each sentence is so laced...
Life's simple pleasures
Today is the perfect Saturday.
Met cheng at his place and we went to walk around at the mall nearby before grabbing a nice cheap dimsum lunch at this coffee shop near his house. We paid $9.80 for char siew bao, har gao, this chicken rice thing and chee cheong fun, and they were all pretty good! Hung arnd at his place after that, chilling while using the computer, then we did some exchange...
Cycle
I’ve noticed a trend.
I get sad, i tell you, you get sad, i get even sadder than you are sad. Then we both go to bed feeling sad and lousy and useless. Cycle repeats. It’s a downhill trend. If i stop at the part where i get sad, it doesn’t go any lower. Stupid me.
Bad day. Bad night. When i go to sleep later, i don’t wanna wake up anymore. Just keep sleeping until my...
There's the honeymoon stage, and the comfortable...
And right now, i think we’re both :)
Who says the comfortable stage can’t be the honeymoon stage too? And who says the honeymoon stage will pass?
I love how you make me feel each time i see you, or the way we tease each other and laugh at each other’s jokes. In fact, i don’t think it’s the honeymoon stage, i think it’s going to be like that the rest of our...
The little things that count
like you calling me, even if it’s just for 3 minutes. So much love :)
There's something about you
that makes everything and anything bad go away the moment i see you. It’s like all bad feelings evaporate to nothing and i just want to cuddle up in the warmth of your embrace. I’m glad i have someone like you.
Love can make up for a lot
Sometime back i saw a post of a pie chart with many different components, with love being the biggest piece of the pie. And the message was that love can make up for a lot of things.
How true. Love may be foolish and irrational at times, but it is also beautiful and stronger than any other force i know.
So this is how it feels like
I think, maybe i know this feeling in my chest. Maybe that’s why i can’t cheer up.
3 words, 8 letters
And today you said it to me. Not personally, but all the same, i wish it was under different circumstances. For some reason i can’t explain, my heart aches so bad when i think about it.
“That’s the thing about pain…it demands to be felt.”
– John Green. -The Fault in Our Stars (via loveyourchaos)
Turbulence
One short morning, about 2 hours since i woke up and my emotions has gone through such extreme turbulence i have a bad headache now.
A simple gesture and its consequences, sometimes i wonder if all i do is worth everything i go through, if it leaves me semi broken and crying in the morning, if it leaves me with hot burning eyes and a sense of defeat and helplessness.
Amazing how my eyes refuse...
Special Moments
My boyfriend is so incredibly sweet today it’s making me tear up. <3
April 2012
46 posts
First time (ever i saw your face)
First time i’m feeling this way, and it scares me a little because it’s like things have changed.
i just needed a listening ear
I thought you’d know me better than to think that i’d stop trying. I just needed to whine and get it off my chest and i thought you were the person i could go to.
In the end, i just got my heart broken.
